So, after the big weekend in Albuquerque, NM. I have/am finally calming down from all the craziness that I witnessed and/or participated in.
I am kind of sad that it is over, because I was so far outside of my comfort zone that I do not think that I will ever be able to get there again.
So, all that begs this question:
How do I make it so that this is my new norm, instead of a "special occasion" or "once in a lifetime" event? Wow, I had so much fun.
I cannot figure out a way to wrap my head around it. I think one of the reasons that I am able to have a good time, while on one of these trips is because I know I am safe. I am not really putting myself out there to "be" with anyone, even though I am hanging out in the crowd.
In the case of Prinzzess and the Sisters, I have no shot whatsoever, as to the other people that tend to be in the group, they have tended to be in relationships already.
I will continue to drive, and yes, maybe even fly to see her dance occasionally, but, I know that me being a spectator is my fate.
Hmmmm, apparently, the Fates have shown their hand again. They know I hate being alone, yet, they only allow me to "meet" people that are not available in any way.
Thanks Guys, I appreciate the support.
Peace to You All,
Namaste, My Friends.
See You On The Other Side.